somethings coming on the horizon

dreary diary,

I may actually have something exciting to tell you today. This will not be another one of my depressing entries but just for the record I'm still here; still alone; and still afraid I'm losing my mind. I think I might even be starting to see things.

As you know nothing ever happens here at this frozen hell, but this morning, I ventured up to my secret lookout spot and have spied something moving way out over the horizon. Something small, white and just a speck of red. And its getting bigger. No, this time its not another one of my mermaid sightings. I'm not about to try to swim out and meet her cold embrace again. No matter how sweet she sings or how her sea foam hair waves me in. We both know that turned out badly and my blue toes are enough of a daily reminder. This time, I'll wait it out and make sure its real before I dive in head first.

In the meantime, I'll prepare a note to send back to my commanding officer. I have a valid excuse too. I've finished the last of the reserves. I'll need both black and white gold very soon, and this will give me reason to write home. Of course I won't say anything until I'm certain.

Tomorrow, it will surely be closer to the outpost, and I'll be able to get a better look at whatever it is. For now, the site of it fills me with mixed emotions, and even more questions. What could this mean for our new colony? Do I finally have a purpose? Yeah, I know I didn't sign up for this post but it would be great to know that these last 6 months had meant something.

All this time away, and all that blood, sweat, and tears that went into my tunnels have probably gone to waste. They're probably caved in by now. I don't think I'll be able to last much longer out here but then again. Do I really have that much to return to? With only the old man to write me, I know better than count on his well wishes ever arriving.

For one thing, I've learned at least some patience and I'll continue to lean on you to keep me going. I'll go prepare that document now and return my vigil over the looking glass.